Lonely Ascetic

Muli

2006-02-19T14:12:00.000+09:00

muli
parokya ni edgar

kay bilis ng pangyayari
hindi ko namalayan
na ako'y iiwan palay mo ng ganunan
kahit na anong gawin
di kyang tanggapin ng puso't isipan
na ika'y lilisan

maaaring bang dinggin
ang natatangi kong hiling
sana ay makapiling ka
muli kang masilayan
at muli kang mahagkan
sana'y di na iwan pang muli

di ko sinasadya na ika ay masaktan
kaya sana naman na iyong maintindihan
na ako'y nagsisisi
at nangangako sayo
na hindi ka na huhula pa sa piling ko

maaaring bang dinggin
ang natatangi kong hiling
sana ay makapiling ka
muli kang masilayan
at muli kang mahagkan
sana'y di na iwan pang muli

di na ba mapagbibigyan
bakit di maunawaan

maaaring bang dinggin
ang natatangi kong hiling
sana ay makapiling ka
muli kang masilayan
at muli kang mahagkan
sana'y di na iwan pa

maaaring bang dinggin
ang natatangi kong hiling
sana ay patawarin mo
ako ay nagsisisi
at nangangako sayo
na hindi ka na huhula pang muli

Nandito

2006-02-19T14:08:00.000+09:00

nandito
parokya ni edgar

ilang taon n'ang nagdaan
di ko pa rin natitikman
na ang ikaw ay halikan
ooh at madama ang iyong kamay
hinahaplos aking mukha
hindi mo ba nakikita

na ako'y maghihintay
kailanpaman
hindi magbabago ikaw lang
ang laman ng puso ko

naalala mo pa ba
inaawitan pa kita
halos lahat ay nagawa
di mo pa rin naramdaman
kahit isang sulyap man lang
sana naman ay pagbigyan

at ako'y maghihintay
kailanpaman
hindi magbabago ikaw lang
ang laman ng puso ko

dapat malaman mo na ako'y mamamatay
kung di kita kapiling habang buhay
dapat malaman mo na ikaw lamang
ang siyang minamahal kailanman

at ako'y maghihintay
kailanpaman
hindi magbabago ikaw lang
ang laman ng puso ko

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2006-02-19T14:05:00.000+09:00

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Miss You Love

2006-01-12T12:21:00.000+09:00

Millionaire say
Got a big shot deal
And thrown it all away but
But I'm not too sure
How I'm supposed to feel
Or what I'm supposed to say

But I'm not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle every day
And I miss you love

Make room for the prey'
Cause I'm coming in
With what I wanna say but
It's gonna hurt
And I love the pain
A breeding ground for hate but...

I'm not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle everyday
Like the one that just past
In the crowds of all the people

Remember today
I've no respect for you
And I miss you love
And I miss use love
I love the way you love
But I hate the way
I'm supposed to love you back

It's just a fad
Part of the teenage angst brigade and
I'm not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle everyday
Like the one that just past
In the crowds of all the people

Remember today
I've no respect for you
And I miss you love
And I miss use love

Remember two days
I've no respect for you
And I miss you love
And I miss use love

I love the way you love
But I hate the way
I'm supposed to love you back

Why I'm letting you go...

2005-11-30T21:35:00.000+09:00

Somehow, deep down, I know I am falling for you. Somehow, however, I'm trying to bury them to the deepest recesses of my heart in the hope of vanquishing them forever.
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I was the ultimate cynic before I met you, and I know I shouldn’t be reminding you of this, because you know this so well. I was the girl who was terrified to commit, terrified to lay her heart out on the open, terrified to gamble, for the weirdest and most confusing reasons.

Actually, now that I had so much time to think about it, my phobia can actually be summed up in four words: fear of getting hurt. I am so petrified at the thought of getting hurt, that I made people believe that I regarded them closely, but actually dealt with them at arms' length. I never let anyone get close enough to hurt me. I originally planned to do the same with you. Of course, you wouldn't allow me.

You were unlike any guy I've ever met before. Well, you were antipatiko and suplado, even maldita! You were a spoiled brat who was used to getting what he wanted in an instant. Admittedly, I was a spoiled brat too. So we clashed. You hated all the things that I loved, and I loathed all the things that interested you. It was a match made in hell. But somehow, for some unknown reason, you stayed put.

Not long after, somehow, someway, you managed to pull the rug off from under me. And before I even knew what was happening, I had been swept off my feet.

Somehow, deep down, I know I am falling for you. Somehow, however, I'm trying to bury them to the deepest recesses of my heart in the hope of vanquishing them forever.

Maybe I'll never forget you. Maybe I'll never live down the fact that I have you-but I'm letting you go. Was it that, or is it that I have you, but I'm not working hard, not fighting hard enough to make you stay? I don't know. I don't want to think, and I don't believe that now is the time to rationalize about these things. Because the truth of the matter is, I'm making you go way.

I hate living this life, knowing that I'll be thinking of these "what if's" for the rest of my life. I hate wishing that I could turn back time, so that I could correct all my mistakes, took all the risks I should have taken, and reached for your hand when you held it out for me. But it's too late for that, and it's not even plausible anyway.

I constantly have to remind myself that you've done your part in my life. You taught me the lesson you came to teach, so you have to leave. I have to move on. I shouldn't wait. But I can't help it.

God, I miss you so much.

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An excerpt from A Love Letter for The One Who Got Away of LySine from Peyups.com
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I changed some lines there to make it more applicable in my situation...

so, this is for you... I wanted to tell you what I really feel but I dont have enough courage to break the glass between us... what is written here is the words I wanted to tell you long ago... this things making me sad, you know that, if you just let me choose the right time, then this would never happen... damn, I hate what's happening... and I just couldn't bare the feeling.. sheesh... =( I know a part of me dont want you to go away that's its hard for me to let you go that easy... I'm really sorry, I wish I could just let you go that easy inside me but I know I'm not... =(

Benefits of the doubt

2005-11-03T19:47:00.000+09:00

as I rest my self from pain and deception, I see a life that could've been and could have not because of this crazy manouvering that were into... "why do you have to make things complicated?"

I ask that I shall have a new life, well, have to make it better... but not in this kind of way. you appear as a ghost that havent been known for a while, yes, doubting as of now maybe my greatest defense that I could give to my self... after this I'll be somewhat change or just be passive, and I mean it, really mean it...

changing a bit for someone would have been great but now it knocks to me as if Im wrong that I made such a move, trying to slow things that into us would be best as I can see for now....

I wub tifa!!!

2005-10-24T16:04:00.000+09:00

been collecting pictures from Final Fantasy VII - Advent Children.. weeh.. i wub tifa.. hehehe...

what the? eerrrr...

2005-10-24T15:57:00.000+09:00

hmmm.. im supposed to meet my friend at the school but she didnt show up.. errr... ive been waiting for almost 2 hours.... sheesh... then after i stayed at the cafe, our adviser told me that she already passed our thesis.. errrr.. so what ive been doin to tyhe school all this time? fuck.... then this enrolment thing.. i hate it so much coz i dont have money yet.. fuck fuck fuck!!!
im so devastated....

ERRRR

2005-10-24T15:53:00.000+09:00

Defense

2005-10-18T19:24:00.000+09:00

We had a defense earlier, and it turn out good... weeeh.. our grade was 96... isnt that great? ^_^ we had some minor revisions to make.. oh well, at least not major or rejected... I love my colleagues, business partners ( in the future... XD), they're my groupmates actually.. ^_^ I love them really, and our ever so nice adviser who where there to support, help and protect us from the wolves that are ready to grab us anytime... XD ( did I exagerate too much? XD) the defense ran smoothly although there are still some revisions to make... ^_^

I'm pretty!!! yeah right, its true... XD I wore a skirt ( above the knee) because we are required to be in formal attire, and there was I, wearing a skirt and a blouse with some blush ons and lipstick... XD trying to walk like a full- pledged gurl.. wehehehe.. I look so great! you may think that I'm boasting too much, I am just saying the truth, ask the ones who sawme... ehehehe... weee!!! bad thing I dont have the picture with me to post... :(

this day was also scheduled for me to take the removal exam on integral calculus, I dont have the chance to have the exam today because of the defense... oh well, we ae scheduled again in thursday, hope I will pass... ^_^ wish me luck.. ^_^

A Hard Day's Night

2005-10-17T20:08:00.000+09:00

I am here, alone and thinking of the things that transpired in the past. I am smiling although my memories arent that gay as anyone would expect. Hurt, bitterness and being alone has been my company eversince, I dont know why, but being with them sets me apart from others, different in so many ways, ideas to studies; passive to cramming, diversing to others would have been my personality all along. It does came naturally, being a passive extrovert, I'm not sure on how did I become of that... XD

Looking back, I was hurt many times but now I am thankful because if not for those things I wouldn't be this tough as I may seem. Patience, courage and discipline has been my virtue that I am holding for all these times. It does transform a new developtment to a new being. Like now, something in me changed, quite too different from what I had seen a long time ago, things came out to be favorable for me. So now, I will take this floor as my new homeground for better...

My "Nightmare" whom I am thankful because I wouldn't be this way if not for that person. The way that person did me bad things and teaching me what being a traitor means. Now I realized that no matter how good your intentions are there will always be a shark ready to attack and eat you whole without knowing it. Salamat sa mga pasakit na ginawa mo sakin, kung hindi dahil don, wala ka ngayong makikita sa harapan mo na binago ng pagkakataon at kaya ka pang higitan sa lahat ng aspeto. Kung ano man ako ngayon ay pinapapasalamat ko sa iyo to, walang awang nilalang... My revenge wouldn't be this fun if not for you... ( maybe revenge has it's own good thing... XD)

At sayo, sa inyo... ikaw na nakakabasa nito nagyon, Salamat! dahil naging isa ka sa mga tumulong sakin para maitaas ulit ang moral ng aking pagkatao. Maaring hindi mo alintana ang mga pagkakataon na naging isa ka/ kayo sa mga dahilan ko para magbago ng tuluyan, kung hindi man, malaki kang parte kung ano ako ngayun kung hindi sa mga kagaguhan ninyo hindi ko magagawang magbago para sa iakakabuti ko. Nauunanwaan ko na wala sayong halaga ang pagkatao ko pero hayaan mo akong magpasalamat sa mga nagawa mong hindi ganon kahalaga para sayo. Alam ko, nababasa mo to ngayon at sana ay iyong mabatid na napakaswerte ko (swerte nga ba? XD) na nagkaroon ako ng mga kaibigan na tulad nyo... kung sino man kayo, Salamat... ^_^

Hmmmm... Did I become an Emo Kid? LOL... XD all that is written here came from the bottom of my heart.. XD

Semester Ends

2005-10-15T19:19:00.000+09:00

today, semesters ends... I dont know if it has a smile, coz on my integral calculus I'm sure I failed my final exam so I would be taking removal exam on tuesday... Im gonna be happy if I can make it to atleast INC coz its easier to be that way than to enrol again in that subject, well, I hope that I have a passing grade for me not to take removal exam... :( then there's my Software Engineering and AFL, Im praying that I passed there coz if not then Im dead... @_@

this day is really devastating... errrr.. since I woke up... have no idea why...

we had some laugh trips with my friends... ^_^ the information hiding technique... *woooosssshhhh* *pose* LOLZ!!! XD

My blogsite now has its own domain name... ^_^

WWW.LONELY-ASCETIC.TK

My Life After...

2005-10-12T19:15:00.000+09:00

Finally my Job at the bank is now over, really over.. :( Im happy and a little bit sad, sad because Im not going to be with them anymore and I'm going to miss them... :( last friday they've given us a farewell party, Im so touched, they told us that it's their first time to throw a party for their student trainees and Im really happy to know that fact, its really touching.. ^_^ and then time came that we bid farewell to each other, darn, I wanted to cry that time... T__T I was controlling my self for them not to see that I'm really sad leaving my new found friends... ^_^

Happy, because I already finished my work there, no more hang-ups about the work, no more over time... other than that, it's over.. finally over.. but hei!!! cheer up! I can go to the bank anytime I want, they have said it.. hehehe... ^_^

Then yesterday it's our time to treat them... ^_^ they loved what I bought.. hehehe, a 8 X 12 black forrest cake... *drools* eon, we had merienda's with them... ^_^ then I made a gift for them,(I slept around 5 am that morning to make those gift boxes.. ^_^ it's worth it nman...) those who are closest to my heart... Ma'am Gigi, Ma'am Dolly, Ma'am Elle, Ma'am Jackie and Ma'am Em... it was just a sign pen then I made a box full of design with love and tender.. XD.... hehehe, they liked the idea and how did I make the gift.. ^_^ I wish I could posted it in here... ^_^

Tomorrow will be my judgement day... Final eXam... T__T have to study later until midnight.. that's it for now.... ^_^
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there are times that I wanted to tell what you really are to me but I think that it is better for us to stay this way, no one will be hurt... i hope so...

High

2005-10-10T14:17:00.000+09:00

High
The Speaks

Whenever you're with me
Im trying so hard to find sweet serenity
Im still afraid Just close your eyes and dream
Feel it fade away

Time won't flow
Everyone knows
When the pain fades away
Dreams wont die
Tears in our eyes
You got to hold your hand up high

Ye...yey
Hold your hand up high

Just take it sometime
Doubt give enough will
To change your state of mind
Just try to understand
Its not so hard to see
That i am just a man

Time won't flow
Everyone knows
When the pain fades away
Dreams wont die
Tears in our eyes
You got to hold your hand up high

Ye...yey
Hold your hand up high

Whenever you're with me
Im trying so hard to find sweet serenity
Just try to understand
Its not so hard to see
That i am just a man

Time won't flow
Everyone knows
When the pain fades away
Dreams wont die
Tears in our eyes
You got to hold your hand up high

Ye...yey
Hold your hand up high

Octoberfest!!!!

2005-10-06T19:19:00.000+09:00

whoa!!! this month came to an uproar, yeah right as if it is... hehehe.. oh well, what could october bring me? its's octoberfest!!! lol, and im not into drinking anymore... (huwaiiiiitttt!!! why am i celebrating octoberfest when im not going to enjoy it as much as my friends would? errrr... too bad..... T_____T) ok, long time since i last post a blog here...

this is it....

yesterday we went to philam life theather to watch a concert that was organized by our dear school to promote the Church... ok, the "so called concert" was nice, and their main performer was Mirriam Valmores- Marasigan, who happened to be a Miss Saigon performer in London... whoa!! our school is getting big time now... hehehehe.. go dolphins fight!!! XD she was really nice and great, I think everyone's admiring her gift of singing.... ^_^ then this the musical director of the concert.... errrr... she's so cute!!! XD she really reminds me of someone, (Yuna? cosplayer.... XD) at her early age, 22, she a musical director!!! OMG! i wish i can be like her, she was playing the keyboard, the smile!!! XD

then this one thing that really excites me, hihihih... before I entered philam life I saw Gen... my gawd!! XD its been a long time since I last saw her, coz she was staying at Mary Johnston Hospital... ^_^ hehehe, im inspired, lol! and we really had this feeling that we know each other coz every time our eyes met... ( naks! XD) we were staring at each other for how long.. 20 secs? waaahhh.... im collapsing... lol! XD its just that im happy seing her again and i think she remembered me or is it because of my attire? the whole black drama, and the dracula like collar? hehehhe.. XD oh well.. Im happy.. ^_^

My Tomodachi!!! Im alive! really! XD eheheh, we were having so much fun yesterday, though she' s stressed out... T_____T hmmm, gotta give her a massage... hihihi.. my gawd, i didn't expect what she said, ehehehe, go out some time? lol... i did not expect it! hehehe.. i am really gonna miss her... T___T at least tomorrow im going see her again, my last day... ^_^

today? nothing interesting happened, darn.. i need money.. T_______T its raining, like what im feeling to my self...pouring numerous thoughts on how will i survive the so called life.. *sigh*

Happy Ending

2005-09-30T19:52:00.000+09:00

Today I sat here thinking the things that I've done in the last three months that I stayed at EPCIB... wondering around, it thought me a lot, gain new friends, great time to meet other people in the professional world... 3 months had passed and my job at the bank is over and I'm gonna miss the people there, most of all my Tomodachi... ^_^

Working with them for a while was fun nevertheless great, it help me a lot to tone some of my ideas in life on how should I see the reality. I couldn't deny the tough times that I went through coz of the work, there are times that I think of my self as nothing as a person who couldn't do anything good. But I was wrong, though I see my self as useless they have appreciated my work, my effort and most of all I think it was me whom they've appreciated.

Turning back the time, I laugh at my self for some regression that I put my self into, the countless thoughts of being with my Tomodachi, the works that could make me closer to her, the conversation on childish thoughts and the read between the lines that she's addressing to, and most of all the inevitable smile that I have whenever I came across her or talk to her or whether other people would say great things about my Tomodachi. And I'm not getting tired of calling her my Tomodachi coz she is really my Tomodachi... though she doesn't know... ^_^

Hoping someday I'll work with them again, have the same laugh, conversation and bonding that I had experienced for the past 3 months, and that things wouldn't change what I had with them...

People do come and go, though they go away they still leave a footprints in your life that would make you remember them for all life long. I thank them for having me as co-worker for some time and changing my life into better things... ^_^

Darn!!! I wanna Die!!!

2005-09-22T13:36:00.000+09:00

I hate what's goin on with me right now.. all those fucking things that's been coming.. i hate it!!! fuck...

Renovation

2005-09-20T19:33:00.000+09:00

so I'm ok now.. really ok... ^_^ been renovating my site for some time now, and its ok!!! though my Archives isnt working as I'm expectingt it to work... oh well, at least it's more nicer now than before and I love it so much.. hehehhe... some add-in's more and walla! it's great site.. hehehe....

Im scared, confusion's eating me up...

2005-09-18T20:17:00.000+09:00

darn!!! my head is aching because of liquors.. yeah I do have Hang-Over, and its killing me... and one more, this feeling that into me right now... my God Im depressed!!! T____T I hate it!!! i dont know what to do, confusion's been to me since I woke up early this morning... maybe it's because I cant remember anything that happened last night coz I was so drunk, I still remember the things that had happened before I slept, but my God, I cant recall the things that I've done when I was sleeping.. my friends told me that I was too drunk that I did something embarassing... sheeesh.. if they only knew what Im going through right now.... the second thoughts that's in my head right now... and the worst is... if my friends did something to me... darn... T___T I hope they didn't do anthing to me while asleep.. *keep praying* now, I made up my mind and I swear that I woudn't drink liquors again... its for real... startin' today...

ok, yesterday we had a celebration of Mhai's birthday at Pansol, Laguna... it was nice, we had so much fun.. (I feel like I dont want to hear the word "fun" for the moment, Im scared... T__T waaaah!!!) an overnight swimming... our own place with our friends... * sigh* we were there until 7 am today.... waaaah.... T____T

I think my body doesnt like liqours anymore, coz Im vomiting, (of course!!!) and darn it's like a poison to my body that is killing me slowly, really slow.... T____T

if only I can turn back time... *sigh* this will be a lesson for me.... T_T

I wanted to shout, I wanted to scream, for me to lose this feeling that's bothering me..... T____T

May God help me to over come this feeling and wishing that there's no bad thing happened to me while asleep.... I learned my lesson.... T_____T

Silent Mode

2005-09-12T17:03:00.000+09:00

3 am.

After almost two days of me not texting you back, I lie awake. Thinking of us. Thinking of you. Thinking of what we’re going to do. Thinking of how and why we ended up in this situation. My mind went blank. Numb even.

We’ve been sleeping together for months now. We didn’t care much for a lot of things. Like how it didn’t matter that we’re approximately 2 hours from each other. It didn’t matter that we’re both attached to other people. It didn’t matter that we’re both females. Things were quite simple. We’re just two people who want to be together. Things went smoothly for the past couple of months.

Until you fell in love.

It’s not only fire that we were playing with now. But also toying dangerously with emotions. Feelings. A few weeks back you texted me probably one of the sweetest things anyone ever said to me. It’s still in my inbox after all this time. I don’t know if you still remember it. You said that you’re having a hard time keeping it from me anymore. That you don’t care if I accept it or not, but you love me already.

I was startled when my phone beeped. It was you.

“You still awake?”

“Yeah. In bed thinking of y0u…”

“ Naka2tamp0 ka nman…”

Sigh.

“ I kn0w. I’m s0rry. You d0n’t kn0w h0w much I miss y0u.”

Considering I’m of the female specie, I’m never really good at explaining things…especially on what I’m feeling. I probably should be hanged for this. Like how we lynch the guys we know that is guilty of the same thing.

“ I d0n’t get it.” , she texted.

Whew. This would be really hard. I took a deep breath and started punching keys.

“Even th0ugh U d0n’t say anything, I can feel hw much ure hurting. Hw much I’m hurting U. Sumhow at the back 0f my mind, I wnted U 2 jst 4get abt me all t0gether. Dat way I can make d pain g0 away. Even if it means U getting mad at me. Bt at the same tym its killing me. Real sl0w...”

Long pause. I glanced at my alarm clock on the bedside table. It glinted 3:25. She must’ve fallen asleep.

The phone beeped one more time.

“U mean U want me t0 f0rget ab0ut you? ”

“S0meh0w, yes. Bt my whole being’s screaming n0. N0one cud evr imagine h0w mch I wana be wid U. Bt I wana be the last pers0n 2 hurt U. Ure that special to me…”

“Well. Make up ur mind and being then. And I’ll try so damn hard t0 get 0ut 0f ur lyf. Just t0 make things unc0mplicated f0r U.”

Ouch. That hurt. It took me a long while to respond. I didn’t know what to say. I was rather overwhelmed with the fact that I’d really lose her. That she’d really get out of my life.
Reality check. This is what I wanted right? I kicked myself. Geez.

4:10 am.

“M having a hard time explaining. M sorry. Never really gud at this, p0uring my heart and stuff. Its n0t me that needs pr0tecting. It’s y0u. I want to pr0tect y0u fr0m me. Lab0 k0.”
I didn’t wait for your reply. I continued texting…

“Normally, I wudn’t care. I’d be my own selfish self, take wat I can and NEVER care. Bt ure different. U changed sumthing in me, I’m not even sure what.”

God. I lied. Forgive me. I lied. I very well know what happened to me.

I fell in love too.

I wanted to call and tell you how I feel. I wanted to just drop the whole thing and tell you to just forget about everything I’ve said…that we’d be ok…that we could still make things work.
But I had to keep myself from doing that. Because I know things would get worse. Complicate things even. It always is when emotions start springing up. And it’s not just the hormones jumping up. And I know I won’t be able to give her what she needs. What she deserves.

Sigh.

4: 15.

“OK. U take care.”

Sunrise and sunsets came and went. Lots of endless nights and tiring days passed by. My phone lay quietly beside me.

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DISCLAIMER: Everything that is written here in this article is written by Coffee of Peyups.com
Here's the link to Coffee's article...

Silent Mode

But I'm not, not sure, not too sure how it feels, to handle every day...

2005-09-09T20:23:00.000+09:00

hmmmm.. waaaah.. tagal kong hindi naka post dito ah... *sigh* hmmm...
ok naman ako, actually, masaya nga kung tutuusin eh, syempre nanjan yung Tomodachi kow... ^_^

ganda nga nman ng araw ko dba? ilang weeks na nga bang gumaganda araw ko ng dahil sa kanya? hindi ko na alam, basta isa lang ang alam ko at sigurado ako, nanjan sya at importante na yun sakin para kahit papano gumaan ang pakiramdam ko... siguro para na rin magbago ako ng tuluyan... ^_^ sa pag kaka-alam ko hindi nya nalalaman kung ano ang epekto sakin ng mga simpleng kakulitan, ngiti, pagtuturo at pag-kukwento nya, kung ano ano lang ang napapag-usapan namin pero sakin malaking bagay na yun para ma-inspired ako ng dahil sa kanya...
maaaring sa iba eh wlang kakwenta-kwenta ngayun tong sinsabi ko, paki-alam nyo ba? buhay ko toh noh...
sa pangalawang pag-kakataon sa buhay ko, may nakakapag-pangiti sakin ng wlang dahilan, as in sobrang walang dahilan... ^_^ hahaha, minsan, hindi ko rin maintindihan ang sarili ko eh, kasi ewan ko ba, nakikita ko sa kanya yung isang tao na hindi ko malilimutan, (alam na yan ng barkada ko kung sino sya.. basta High School days... ) kung kelan na ako papa-alis eh tsaka ko nman napapansin yung sobrang pagkaka-parehas nila... hindi naman sa hinahanap ko sa Tomodachi ko yung katangian ng isa, pero minsan talaga, nandun talaga eh, hindi ko hinahanap pero kusa kong nakikita yung pag-kaka-pareho nilang dalawa... (sabihin nyo na naman na hindi pa ko naka-move on, naka-move on na ko, duh!!! its been 4 years since... teka ano nga ba nangyari last 4 years? hehehe... XD )

hay naku, basta ako masaya na kasi, naka-kilala ulit ako ng tao na kayang pagandahin yung araw ng isang tao ng wla man lang ginagawa... mga sweet nothings.. hehehe... siguro matagal din bago ko... hmmm.. ano ba? ewann... hahaha... XD

hmmm, hanggang ngayun may mga time talaga na hindi ko malaman kung tama yung iniisip ko sa kanya or not, kasi basta meron akong hindi mapaliwanag... benefit of the doubt? ewan pero parang ,malaking bagay yun na nakaktulong ng sobra sakin.. hahahaa, ang weird... XD

basta one time sasabihin ko lahat lahat about sa taong yun, pag nagkaron na ako ng time, hindi yung ganito na hindi ko hawak yung oras ko dahil sa trabaho at iba pang bagay... ^_^ (tingin sa relo* syet!!!! hindi ko mapapanood Attic Cat last day pa nman nun, waaahhhh.... T_T)

sayang nman kulang na yung time ko para mag post, kaso wala na rin ako sa mood para mag post, magiging wala lang lalong kwenta post ko.. mwehehehe...

btw, im so excited about our outing, it will be Mhai's bday and she's going to treat us on a private resort and we're going to have fun!!!! weeee!! im so excited, I cant wait for september 17!!! weeeehh!!! darn, I miss liquors.. wahahaha... hmmm, sept. 17 reminds me of someone... ka-age ko na sha sa sept. 17.. hindi ako maka-paniwala.. ^_^ 7 years have passed since I met her... ^_^ *sigh* oh well, I wish her the best in this world, at sana ganun pa rin sya kung ano yung magic at gift na nababahagi nya sa iba... ^_^ hanggng dito na lang muna at ako ay tinatamad nang mag kwento, isip naman ako ng bago... ^_^

nasabi ko ba na yung Tomodachi ko eh.... hahaha... XD
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I get so weak when you look at me, I get lost inside your eyes,
sometimes the magic is hard to believe...
But you're here before my very eyes, you brought joy to my world,
set me so free I want you to understand...
You are every breath that i breathe...

Whatever!!!

2005-09-05T17:30:00.000+09:00

yoh... im at skul right now.. hahaha.. posting while my prof is away.. hihihih.... XD
I wanna sleep!!! *yawn* @_@ Integral Calculus sunod kong class.. hihihi.. patayan na nman ng utak itoh.. T_T oh well, have to go... wish me luck.. LOLZ!!!

The Dante's Inferno Test

2005-09-02T22:19:00.000+09:00

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Eigth Level of Hell - the Malebolge!

Eigth Level of Hell - the Malebolge

Many and varied sinners suffer eternally in the multi-leveled Malebolge, an ampitheatre-shapped pit of despair Wholly of stone and of an iron colour: Those guilty of fraudulence and malice; the seducers and pimps, who are whipped by horned demons; the hypocrites, who struggle to walk in lead-lined cloaks; the barraters, who are ducked in boiling pitch by demons known as the Malebranche. The simonists, wedged into stone holes, and whose feet are licked by flames, kick and writhe desperately. The magicians, diviners, fortune tellers, and panderers are all here, as are the thieves. Some wallow in human excrement. Serpents writhe and wrap around men, sometimes fusing into each other. Bodies are torn apart. When you arrive, you will want to put your hands over your ears because of the lamentations of the sinners here, who are afflicted with scabs like leprosy, and lay sick on the ground, furiously scratching their skin off with their nails. Indeed, justice divine doth smite them with its hammer.

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Moderate
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Moderate
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Moderate

Take the Dante's" Inferno Hell Test

hehehe.... XD for curiousity sakes... bwahahahaha.... XD

Personality Disorder Test

2005-09-02T21:57:00.000+09:00

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Personality Disorder:	Low
Schizoid Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Schizotypal Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Antisocial Personality Disorder:	Low
Borderline Personality Disorder:	Low
Histrionic Personality Disorder:	Low
Narcissistic Personality Disorder:	Moderate
Avoidant Personality Disorder:	Low
Dependent Personality Disorder:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	Low
-- Take the Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Info --

so that means, I dont suffer a personality disorder... yipeee!!! hey classmates!! look at this!!! so you wont judge as "...mjo may topak talaga si jhoey... tsk tsk tsk..." hehehehe.. I've told you!!! hehehe.. XD

Changing

2005-08-28T19:38:00.000+09:00

Pic ko po.. hahaha, wla lang magawa kaya pinost ko.. mwehehehe... XD

hmmm.. its been a long time since I did not post post here ah, *sigh* kaka miss naman, oh well its been two weeks from the last time I posted and what have we got? Oh well, a lot of changes have happened, if you can only see me now, you'll say that I've changed a lot.. hahaha... Its so nice to hear all those appreciation you get from your family and friends and I think I'm loving the feeling of those words.. ^_^ and I'll be doing these things for a long time to bring my self up again.. ^_^ hihihi.. I Love my Self... HAHHAHAHA!!!! (dati pa! XD)

about sa job ko? ok nman sya, maybe mga 15 days na lang and Im thru with my job at the bank... hehehe, lately mjo nakakatamad na and Im getting bored there kahit nandon yung Tomodachi ko, kahit minsan yun na lang ang iniisip ko para pumasok.. hahaha, (sira ulo ka mackii!!! XD) buti nga ngayun, mas close na kami.. *ehem ehem* (kung gusto nyo malaman name nya, naka sulat na, look at it closely... *ehem ehem*) bwahahaha!!!!

basta Im gonna update my blog as soon as possible, mjo wla pa kasi ng time eh.... nga pala salamat sa mga bumisita... ^_^

Cold Morning

2005-08-08T11:53:00.000+09:00

waaaah, Im late as usual... @_@ hmmm.. sarap matulog kasi its raining... weeee... *sigh* *yawn* waaah, last day na daw ng nag o-audit ngayun sa bank, sana nga last day na para makapasok kami tomorrow, malabo nga pala ako, kasi wala pa yung hinihintay kow... T___T

oh well, this is it for now... *sigh* *keep on praying*... =^_^=

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I knew it was there
Though i tried to hide it
The feeling just kept on shining through
Haven't known you that long
So i try to deny it
But the feeling was too much too
Much too strong

Could this be love
Deep down inside
Tearing me apart
I feel it in my heart

Constantly, you're on my mind
Thinking about you all the time
I can't sleep no matter what i do
I just keep in thinkin' about you

Why do i feel this way
When i know you have someone
That you're seeing each and everyday
Should i play this game
Of just being your friend
When i know that's not
Where i want it to end

How could this be wrong
When the feeling's so strong
Tearing me apart
I feel it in my heart

No,i don't want to start no trouble
Between you and i and your lover
But i must tell you what i'm going through
Everytime you walk by
I see love in your eyes

Looking Forward

2005-08-06T22:34:00.000+09:00

The rain was falling hard at Cavite, and my Tita dont want me to go to Manila coz its raining and may bagyo daw... @_@ errrr... I still went to Manila... hihihih... ^_^ (I really like having my OJT coz of my Tomodachi... hihihi... LOL...^_^) so there I was, I arrived early, hmmm that was quarter to 1pm I think... so I was asked to find some files by one of my bosses but I didnt find it, hehehe... hmmmm... we had our lunch at the nearest fast food you could think of.. @_@ (san pa ba dapat? sheeeesh... waaaah, nahihiya ako kasi nilbre ako, mewon naman kasi ako pera bat pa ako nilibre? hehehe, kakahiya lang talaga... XD oh well, Thank's Ma'am!!! ^_^) while I was eating, I couldnt help my self but to smile, why? coz of my Tomodachi.. hihihi... waaaah...errrr.... she's so nice promise! and she's so simple... *Deadly Gorgeous* ^_^ (so I couldnt control my self na when it comes to her.... errrr.. this is so familiar, remember R.M?) OK!!! I'll stop talking bout my Tomodachi, but I couldnt help my self.. errr.... I'll do my best na lang not to talk about her... XD after we ate, work, work, work.... hahaha, work until quarter to 8pm... hmmm.... waaaah... T_T

School Day

2005-08-04T12:14:00.000+09:00

no OJT for today, so it means I have to go to class... @_@ Im so tired, this past few weeks my attention to my studies were diverted to work, I just wanted to have a work!!! a stable job that is.... hmmm, now I understand why some students dont graduate when they started to work because it so new and you get fond of it.. ^_^ hmmm.. hope this'll be ok for me... no work tommorow.. ^_^

Why Do I Love Her?

2005-08-03T18:39:00.000+09:00

Why do I love her and not him, and him, and another him? Well, I can’t bring myself to love them; I can’t bring myself to even try. I had experiences with other hims and what I have with her now is simply different. Way different.

Why do I love her? Loving her has no reasons. I just simply do. And that’s just one difference between loving her and loving them hims: loving them has to have reasons because otherwise there’s no point in loving them at all.

I love her not because she loves me back. There are others who love me, others who would be willing to love me, others who would care for me. But I don’t need them—it’s her I need. Her warmth, understanding, acceptance, affection, beauty, temperament, mood swings, and flaws—I need all that. I need her.

It is only when I’m with her that I am most secure and comfortable. I can be anyone and anything when I’m with her. She accepts the whole of me and she understands my shortcomings. Whether I succeed or fail, I know she’ll be beside me.

She lets me grow as a person. I tend to let my world revolve around her and only her sometimes, as if there’s no one else in this world but the two of us. She knows that this isn’t healthy and that we have to have space for personal growth and time for ourselves. A stable relationship calls for stable individuals; and for our relationship to blossom and last for a long time, we both have to continue to develop and to mature together and individually.
Most importantly, while we are lovers, we are also best friends. After a tiring day, it would be nice to just talk to her—telling anecdotes, exchanging views, catching up on the going ons of each other’s lives. When all is said and done, she is not only my best friend, she is also my shock-absorber, my angel, my teddybear, my adviser, my inspiration, my motivation—my everything.

So understand that there are no reasons why I love her. I just do.
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DISCLAIMER: Everything that is written here is from Eya's article from Peyups.com
here's the complete article from peyups.com...

Why Do I Love Her?

Left Behind

2005-08-03T16:12:00.000+09:00

so I was a little late today, and darn there were the Auditors... sheeeeshhh... my friend was also there, she just stayed at the the officer's desk, and I went to the New Accounts.. hehehe, I really love being in the N/A, hihhihi, My Tomodachi was the first person who greeted me...^_^ hahaha, ok, ok, ok so I'm being mababaw na when it comes to her, but what can I do? I've fallen into her spell.. lol, what the hell Im talking about? XD Im happy that's all and it's because of My Tomodachi.. ^_^ (wish I could post her pic here, wait let me find one.. ^_ ^) so, there I was doin' a lot of things till lunch, after we ate lunch, I was kinda moody coz my friend was teasing me on something and I didnt talk to her until now, (KIDS!!! XD) then one of the officers ask me to copy/forge her signiture for me to sign up those thick-ass papers that was suppose to be signed-up last year.. waaaah.. ahahha, Im one damn good in forging, so I dont mind doin it.. hehehehe...

*WAPAK!!!!* the Auditors thought we should be (Student Trainees) involved in auditing, darn! so Sir Jun, ask us to go home na and we will come back na lang on monday para the bank would be cleared from the head office bout sa Trainees, coz we (OJT's) dont have clearance from the main office, we were hired directly that's why we dont have that damn fucking clearance from the HRD of EPCIB... errrr... My classmates were there too and they know what's goin on and they've left me! dont blame me if Im being moody it's not my fault anyway.. tsk tsk tsk....

Thank God before I went home, I had the chance to talk to my Tomodachi, (my tomodachi talaga oh? lol!!! asa ka mackii!!! XD) hehehehe, eon, ok na rin nakwento ko sa kanila yung nangyari, so yun.. hehehe... masaya pa rin... ^_^
(I've found the pic.. hihihih... ^_^)

Audit...

2005-08-02T18:44:00.000+09:00

errr.... when I arrived at the bank there were auditors from the head office of EPCIB, they are there to audit the said branch and to check on somethings... so all of us were a "good kid" we cant be the bad guys muna kasi pag ginawa namin yun dedz yung branch and the thing is its their first day of audit!!! T____T waaaah, one week sila dun sa bank.... kung hindi nga naman minamalas.. tsk tsk tsk. so ako dun na lang sa N/A as usual, yun na nga ata talaga puesto ko.... hmmm dami naming ginawa lahat ng pwede maiayos pa ginagawa na namin para hindi sila malagat.. hahaha... masaya naman, nalibang ako.... ^_^

My day was really nice. why? coz of my Tomodachi.. hihihih... ang saya sobra.... hahaha, this is what you get for having so much of over time... hahaha.. ^_^ You rock my world!!! wooohooooo!!! LOL.. XD yun na yun basta... ^_^

She completes me!

2005-07-31T20:44:00.000+09:00

I dont know.. but this week has been a crazy damn week... waaah... the sked was so hectic and I am so burn up... somethings eating me, not on the literal side. ^_^ hope this week will be much more fun...

hmmmm... does she put a spell on me? hahaha, I wish she didnt, I just dont know what's happening with me right now, she's all that I could think of... well.. I guess she does put me in a magical spell.... ^_^

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I get so weak
When you look at me
I get lost inside your eyes
Sometimes the magic is hard to believe
But you're here before my very eyes
You brought joy to my world
Set me so free
I want you to understand
You are every breath that i breathe...

Some of the girls/women eat like whales... Part II

2005-07-30T20:29:00.000+09:00

hmmmm? *ehem ehem* what have we got? I attended my OJT, halfday lang nman kasi kami pag sat.. hahaha!!! ang saya ko!!! ^_^ hahaha, dami kong nalaman about my Tomodachi *ehem ehem*, Ordinaryo sya!!! hehehe, buti naman, kasi parang aloof yun sa tao eh, tahimik lang pala talaga... hehehe... buti na lang dinala ko yung Vince's Life at nakapagkwento sya... *sigh* kala ko tahimik pa rin eh... hay naku ang saya saya ko... feeling ko fave color nya pink, kasi palagi syang naka pink eh.. hehehe... pag natuloy plan ko ok na toh... ^_^ weeeh..... at sana nga pala gumaling na sya... ^_^ *sigh* kailangan matuloy yung plan ko!!! (what in the hell is happenning to me??? XD)

the part II of Some of the girls/women eat like Whales... ^_^

hehehe, naalala ko toh last week ng nasa bank ako, sat din dun... hehehe, lunch namin nun tapos sabay sabay kami... gulat ko talaga, yung dalawang hinahangan kong (on different aspect) babae eh ganun... lufet talaga, X3 ng kinain ko yung kinain nila tapos hindi man lang mga tumataba... hahaha... astig!!! ^_^ hirap paniwalaan... ^_^ dapat pala masanay na ako, everyweek na toh... hehehe... ^_^

nakuha na namin ni Aikin yung basic structures namin para sa thesis, hehehe.... hay simula na to ng madugong pag-gawa, hahaha! kaya natin yan!!! ^_^

Loaded

2005-07-29T13:49:00.000+09:00

Last night my friends and I went to Thina' s place to celebrate George's birthday... hmmm.. it was not that fun coz we arrived at the house around 8:30pm and my plan is I have to go home by 9:00pm... sheeesh... what kind of shedule is that? errrrr.... so parang nag - eat and run lang kami ni Shaneth then by 9:30 umalis na kaming dalawa para umuwi, hehehe, bawal ako mgpa-gabi, patay ako sa bahay.. hahaha!!! XD

OJT na naman, hehehe, late ako, as usual dun na nman ako sa open accounts, waaah!!! grabe ang daming tao, maxado kaming naging busy nakalimutan na nga namin kumain sa tamang oras...ok , so kasama na namin si Jay sa bank, hmmm.. pasaway pa, bangag ata yun.. tsk tsk tsk...

masaya naman.. hahaha... basta masaya sa new accounts.. hehehe... weeeh... ^_^ baka dun na lang ako mag-stay at least mejo nakaka-usap islash nakukulit islash may nalalaman pa ako sa Tomodachi ko.. hehehe.. XD hihihih.. if she only knew.. lolz..

Im going through changes

2005-07-28T13:01:00.000+09:00

well, Im in the school right now at our laboratory.. hihihihi... XD weeeeh... ayus na yung SE namin, hehehe, thank's sir!!! ^_^

T_T waaahhhh.... Im dead! I failed my AFL exam and Im sure of it coz i didnt study, I should have not taken the exam.. darn... some of our exams were postponed for some reasons we dont know... *sigh* I really need sleep... *yawn*

This past few weeks, I've been thinking of my life and I realized that I wasted so much of me doing nothing, no growing inside and out, I should have grown into something that eveyone would envy, hahhaha!!! (bad Mackii... tsk tsk tsk... ^_^) and by now, Im sure that I'll be doing those things... have to change for the better... malaki na ang nawala sakin hindi na dapat mangyari ulit yun.... ^_^ konting panahon pa, I'll be one damn good girl/lady... hahahaha.. XD

Excited n ako sa para sa OJT tommorow... hihihi.. ^_^

Sounds... ^_^

2005-07-27T22:38:00.000+09:00

My Blogsite now has a sound, thank's to jammy for helping me about the tags and another thank you to Sera for the mp3 on his site... ^_^ sana po ma-enjoy nyo yung blogsite kow.. ^_^

Over Time

2005-07-27T20:58:00.000+09:00

Ok, I didn't get enough sleep and that's been my routine for almost a month now, 4-5 hours of sleep in a day? sheeeshh!!! Im gonna be dead for sure

I have my OJT today and it was fun, all day I was with Ma'am Jackie (I really love her scent, it makes me wanna hug her.... ^_^ I really mean it... ^_^) on the New Accounts section in the bank.. well, ngayun lang kasi ako nag-stay dun ng all day. Now I understand kung bakit lahat ng mga nasa N/A ay uber duper late mag-lunch.. nga nman tambakan ka na madaming client, yung iba nakaka-asar pa, pasaway in other words... Ma'am Jacq thought me somethings for me to remember whenever I'll stay at the N/A section... One of the client who opened an account for SSS was really nice, after the transaction that we have made for this Mr... ( i forgot his lastname so I'll call him na lang Mr. Nice.. ^_^) Mr. Nice decided to buy us food (me and Ma'am Jacq) (isipin mo na lang yung pinakamalapit dun na food chain.. heheh) weeeeh... pasasalamat nya kasi daw sa pag-aasikaso namin sa kanya... hehehe, astig ganun pala sa N/A.... at dahil ako nga ay nasa N/A, ang ginugulo ko palagi ay si Ma'am Em (:wub:) *kilig* hehehe, bait talaga... basta hehehe, she's so errrr.... simple yet so lovely slash irresistable... ^_^ she's a breath of fresh air.. ^_^

hahaha, TALO PCU sa letran , and coz of that nag-aasaran kami ng ka-student trainee namin na si Mocha kasi taga Letran sya.. hahaha, inaasar pa nila ako, kasi palagi akong nasa N/A.... hahaha!!!

codes... 1121, 1122, 1231, 1131... hehehe, yan yung codes sa bank... hahaha!!!

grabe OT ko ngayun sa bank, 7:30pm na ako umalis, oh well, masaya naman... hihihih... hahaha, ang saya kow.. ^_^ hindi ba halata? basta lahat toh ng dahil sa mga taga N/A except syempre kay halimaw.. tsk tsk tsk ....

an old friend re appeared... hmmm, sana nga lang makamove on na sya no more bitterness... tsk tsk tsk...

Thank's to jammy for helping me put some things/tags on my blogsite... ^_^ the sounds are credited to her.. ^_^

Tommoror will be a hell day, coz prelim exam namin and its so late.. ^_^

Guestbook

2005-07-26T21:08:00.000+09:00

My blog now has a guestbook... ^_^ see the pic of Horo-Horo on the lower left corner? That's a link to my guestbook.. ^_^ hehehe, Im just putting all the tags that I could get in here, I do have better plans.. ^_^ Pasyensya na lang muna kung mejo sabog sabog pa tong blogsite ko... Hopefully in a month maaayus ko na yung site ko.. ^_^ Trial and error pa lang pow.. ^_^

Long Day.. >_<

2005-07-26T20:01:00.000+09:00

I woke up late and I arrived at the bank around 11:45am... The traffic was a hell along Bacoor, Cavite. Sheesh! Lots of work at the bank because yesterday was a special holiday.. ^_^ Though we had lots of paperwork were not that stress out, me and shaneth had a nice conversation with one of our bosses, Ma'am Jackie... ^_^

I was starving all day and I dont know why I was full naman... =( *sigh* tommorow is just a another shiny/rainy day for all of us... ^_^

Sir Angel thought me how to check the Current and the Dollar Account, hehehe, by now, I wont be asking any of my officers if they can check the balance of the clients.. ^_^ weeeh... Im so happy... The rotation have been in effect, hehehe, wala lang, share.. XD About her? well, she's really nice/great... hehehe... ^_^ One thing more, I did notice that all of the employee there were very friendly, Im not used to that... Oh well, its nice.. ^_^

Nakakakilig na Nakakalungkot....

2005-07-26T19:40:00.000+09:00

This a story that I've been keepin in my inbox for the past 2 years, and I've decided to post it in here to share... I really like the story that's why I dont erase it... ^_^ Hope you like it and whoever made this article, it is a really great read and I love it.. ^_^

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GIRL = let's call her Ann
GUY = let's call him Migs

ONE NiGHT: they were talking on the phone about the perennial topic of getting-to-know-each-other-better-and-better pairs, LOVE LIFE. Migs was using the cordless one. Suddenly, brown out. So he texted Ann this: (not in the abbreviated form) "Hey sorry! Nagbrownout here. Sayang, I really wanted to talk to you pa. You're really abreath of fresh air you know that? Nga pala. Thanx for being you. La lang. You're something I need to make me whole. Corny, pero totoo. Haay, miss you na agad! I'll see you tom. Lovekita, friend ko...=( "

Ann: (puzzled) why kya may sad face?Pero kilig ako! hehehe.. Kaso, bad mag-assume. Sad kya siya dahil friends lang kami? Or sad lang talaga siya today?

Kilig-ed to the max, Ann saved that message sa phone nya. And she was left thinking whether what she feels is reciprocated or not.

TWO YEARS LATER: sobrang close pa rin sila...THE MESSAGE WAS STILL ON HER PHONE. They went out a couple of times, calling their date "company dates" whenever they make kwento to people to avoid awkwardness.

LAST DAY OF CLASSES BEFORE SUMMER THAT SCHOOL YEAR:
LOCATION: Sunken garden, UP Diliman campus
SETTING: sunset, ganda (daw) ng clouds, perfect setting sa mga mag-aaminan.

MIGS: Ann, I have to tell you something.

ANN: (thinking: THIS IS IT!) Yeah?

MIGS: Uh..(fidgets) you know how close we are? I just wanna thank you. Sobrang angel kita. You know that nman right?

ANN: (thinking: AAHHH! Kilig!) Corny! hehe.. Pero yeah, you know din nman na you're my angel right?

MIGS: (blushing) uhh..yeah. (fidgets)

ANN: (blushing, feeling awkward) o, why? You have a problem ba?MIGS: (hugging her) No naman. Just happy. -finished na yung hug-ANN: aww..me too. Feels right to be with you now.

MIGS: likewise (biglang tumulo ang tears of joy) Kainis, I'm getting emotional again. Sorry.(wipes tears)

ANN and MIGS: (sabay) May--

ANN: You first.

MIGS:uhh...hehe..teka. Hirap sabihin. Borrow nlang ng phone.

ANN: (Surprised, panicked) h-hah? w-wait lang.

Since naka-save pa yung message ni Migs above (FOR 2 FRIGGIN' YEARS) and walang confirmed mutual understanding, ANN erased it para Migs wouldn't know...but it was hard for her to erase the prized and oldest text message na yun sa phone niya.

MIGS: (typed something sa cellphone) Uhh..here. Thanks for being supportive ha?

ANN: (read the message) Aww. Omigosh. Really?

MIGS: yeah. you ok?

ANN: (nods, crying) can I just hug you?

MIGS: (hugs her) Why are you crying? Mad ka ba? Ayaw mo ba?

ANN: la lang. I'm just happy...really, I am.

MIGS: Aww...love mo ko talaga! Tama talaga timpla natin! I'm happy too. Nasabi ko na ba na mahal kita?(to the nape and back ang smile)

ANN: (crying pa rin) Ngayon lang Migs...ngayon lang. you know what Migs wrote? eto (not in theabbreviated form):

"May girlfriend na ko. SHE'S a BREATH OF FRESH AIR, you'd like her. Sori I didn't tell you about her. You'll understand, dba angel? Kaw pa, love mo ko eh, hehehe. First time ko lang sasabihin ito. I was in love with you for the past 2 years. Pero alam ko, it can never be. I value our friendship so much, I couldn't risk losing you kahit mahal kita. i love you bestfriend.."

shit.... =(

Student Trainee

2005-07-25T15:20:00.000+09:00

This OJT thing kills me.. really... this thing about clothes.. now im getting paranoid.. amf... oh well, later *hoping* I'll buy some clothes.. its getting late I have to go.. until then... weeeehhh!!! Im looking forward seing her tommorow... I love working in the bank.. lol.. XD

Wierd...

2005-07-25T14:59:00.000+09:00

Why does my post keep on cutting? tsk tsk tsk.. its not fun anymore.... darn.... >_<

Politics Sucks!!!

2005-07-25T14:31:00.000+09:00

Politics in the Philippines really sucks, I cant stand why they're giving a damn on those corrupt people, lets say our dear president... cant they see what are they doing to our lovable country? They're destroying it by means of being greedy in the power and most of all the money... for damn sake, they should have save our third world country to be the worst ever... Yeah, I thank those activist who proclaim thier rights but sometimes its not that convincing because they have TOO their own motive why they're doing this... fuck ass morons... >_<>_<

Stigmatized

2005-07-23T22:34:00.000+09:00

I can feel the blood rushing through my veins when I hear your voice driving me insane...
Tease me, by holding out your handThen leave me, or take me as I am... ^_^

Workaholic....

2005-07-23T21:20:00.000+09:00

Its saturday and I have work, and I just love working in the bank... I admit that Im inspired when Im working, hey its not bad when you do have inspiration.. its takes the stress out of you... hahaha... Actually its my overtime, yes... I do have my personal reason why I agreed to have an OT today.. hehehe, but its not that all, I wanted to get out of our house and have some relaxation... ^_^ Mind you, Im not regretting that Im into this situation, this workaholic thing, I just love it.. And Im happy working with that person, though I merely talk to her... Its strange, really, after several years of not feeling this way.. and I JUST LOVE what Im feeling right now... Though were not that close (So Near yet So Far...) I can approach her naman anytime.. weeeh.. ^_^ Have I said that Im so addicted with her? Nah? Well Im saying it now... Im addicted to *ehEM, ehEM* I can't help it.. She's taking over me and I dont have any control.. LOL!!! XD
What more can I say? I love being in the bank, I love working.. I love evrything that's happening now...
OK, OK.. Do I look like Im obssesed with her? No naman, is just that I really like her... She's very simple and I cant help my self but to admire her, it seems that lots of people knew my secret, is it a secret until now? Hahaha, Ive said it na... Oh well, Im just happy... Hope that we can be friends.. ^_^ Hope that I get absorb in the bank...

Simple yet so Lovely

2005-07-23T20:30:00.000+09:00

ok, so... im inspired!!! hehehe... its not a big deal anyway... its just that im so fond of that person.. ^_^

Silently Laughing

2005-07-23T10:20:00.000+09:00

Day passing by and I cant help my self but laugh... on what? evrything that I would remember... It started when my friend told me something about her conversatioon with his BF.. and since then whenever I remember those phrases I started laughing, silently... Mybe some people would think that I've lost my mind but what the heck? hehehe, Im happy... Like yesterday, Im on my way to go the bank (where my friend and I work...) Im on a bus when I saw someone doinh a push-ups at the baywalk, I remember what my lil bro said to my kuya whenever my he make push-ups, he describe it as , first you wave your hand like in a beach then after sometime only the four fingers are going up and down.. I hope you did get what I am saying.. ^_^ *laughing again* that description really makes me nuts.. hahaha... *still laughing*

Everyone's a cheater

2005-07-17T15:17:00.000+09:00

Others cheat and attribute it to their imploding relationship, as if their relationship is a distinct entity capable of dictating the switching of one partner for another. But that’s not a valid argument; everyone has a choice, and all you have to do is step over to the other side, and then it’s not your choice anymore. The point is: there is a point before and after you decide to cheat; not getting yourself too drunk, avoiding the seductive stares of the girl in the table in front of you, not answering the call of a recently brokenhearted friend asking for “comfort”. I've read this from www.Peyups.com here's the link... Everyone's a cheater...

weeee!!!!

2005-07-15T21:16:00.000+09:00

just trying the lime light.. ^_^

Another Try

2005-07-15T20:48:00.000+09:00

Just Trying This NEw Blog.. hehehe